I close my eyes tight

Another sleepless night has come

The moon shines so brightly

Blinding me

Then

The bed creaks silently

I can feel your presence

I open my eyes

And find you staring so intensely at me

Not a word

You stroke my cheeks

I can feel the warmth channeling through your hands

You leaned against me

Our skin brushing in contact

You planted a wet kiss on my forehead

I shiver slightly

A little afraid yet so eager

You caress me so gently

Fondling me like a child

Slowly and silently

Your daring hands slip cautiously into my clothes

Roaming through the forbidden grounds

I let out a moan

I can see the devilish smile on your lips

Teasing me

Is this a trap?

I ask myself

Have I let my guard down?

Again, you stroke me

I can feel your masculine body against me

I tremble again with eagerness and excitement

You bent forward all of a sudden

The kiss

Featherlight

Like a butterfly

Come and gone

I pulled you towards me

Deepening the kiss

I could feel your sensual lips brushing against mine

The tip of your burning tongue lurking inside me

You tasted hot and sweet

Honeyed wine could not compare


You have triggered something inside of me




Something dark and forbidden...













Ermmm...
I leave the rest to you and your imagination and see where it gets you

This is really embarrassing
>////<

But bare in mind that this is only fictional!!!
If anyone of you can be so foolish to think that that is from my experience
I'll personally tear you part by part and shred you into mince meat!!!
Understood??

I was bored...
Don't blame me
I'm a healthy 17 year old with hormones pumping to the max...
It's normal, nothing illegal...
But if my mum sees this, she'll praise me then skin me alive...
= =







~owari~

She, a puppet

Lively yet lifeless

She, a puppet

Bound by strings that control her every limb

She, a puppet

Strange and sorrowful

How long has she been standing there

Bound by cords that have long snatched away her freedom

How long has she been controlled

Physically and Emotionally

Being robbed off her freewill

Though sad

She may not show emotions

Though she performs freely on stage

She is still caged by strings

Strings and cords that seem like poisonous thorns

Which keep her still

When will she be free?



I wonder...






This is something I came up with...
Say, aren't we all puppets, though we're not controlled by strings
but by money, wealth and power?
Yes??






~owari~

P/s: Comments, badly needed^^

It is the end of my dream

I have been only a fragment of my own dream

My wings have forgotten how to fly

I have done nothing but pretend to flap my wings

Do my wings have any meaning if I don't use them to fly?

Destiny is a spiral

Turning and spinning around

The sun rises and sets

Each day starts with a different pattern

The spiral is always turning

No matter how hard you try to stop it

It will never change

Try listening for the heartbeat of destiny to stop

Try pushing it aside

It is nothing but a game

Those who win will get the chance to make choices

Those who lose can only drift with the tide of fate

Perhaps destiny is really unchangeable

We are just puppets on a stage

With strings on our every limb

Given only one life


Fate

You are cruel and cold

With no sympathy and fear

I shall change my own fate

By turning the clock wheels around

I shall change my future

And change it in a different pattern





... ... Bored?? Haha...
I made this up when I was in Form 2 or so...
Hehe^^
I changed it a bit here and there^^


Spiral, huh??
That's where my name originates from^^



~*owari*~

The morning breeze caressed my face
Like a mother fondling a child
I opened up my eyes but there was no one there
Like always


Again I woke up from my nightmares and found no one to accompany me
To share my thoughts
my feelings
and my fears
I knew from the second I was brought to this world
I knew I was and would always be alone


I longed to be hugged
And fondled...
By someone
I long for that painful loneliness to go away
That heart breaking grasp of loneliness
How I envy both mother and son playing together under the autumn sky
How I long to share a mug of warm cocoa with my loved one
How I yearn for that warmth of someone


I don't want to be alone
miserable and tearful
All I want is some proof that my existence in this world is needed


Every night I lay down in the hard, stone cold bed of mine
The coldness had only reminded me of how lonely I was
Then I'll cry myself to sleep and drift into a nightmare
At least my tears are proof that I'm still sane


That evening the rain poured
so heavily I thought the roof would fall on me
All I could do was stare at the rain
I sat at the corner with my feet tucked in
I hugged my knees so hard they felt sore


I was afraid
For the first time
I was truly afraid
Not because of the rain
but what I might and would soon become
The silent echoes of the raindrops were driving me insane
My tears were blinding me
Never have I felt so alone



Just then my bedroom door creaked opened
I sensed a familiar scent in the air
I felt the warmth as the person entered
The coldness and stiffness in the air had disappeared


Finally...


I smiled...
I was no longer alone.

Oh don't mind me... I'm just typing gibberrish...
I was feeling kinda emo-ish today
since everyone was at school and at work
I felt kinda lonely... really...
And the song I'm listening to is really sad and lonely
So I decided to post something up on my long forgotten blog... Hehe

I love you bloggie^^
I hope you're not lonely or something
I'll buy you a cup a warm cocoa??



~*owari*~