What language is thine, O sea?
The language of eternal question.
What language is thine, O sky?
The language of eternal silence.

... 海水呀，你说的是什么？
是永恒的疑问。
天空呀，你说的是什么？
是永恒的沉默。

-Rabindranath Tagore

I didn't want to open my eyes,

fearful that the fairy tale would slip away from my grasp,

tearful that it was a fairy tale of once upon a time,

And when I did,

I felt tears,

my pillow wet from the steady flow of moisture.




The dream was a memory of you and me,

and when I woke up,

reality became a nightmare.

Its sorta true though.

And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity
Sweet Serendipity








All credits go to Lee Dewyze :)


♥ Sweet serendipity ♥

I'm alive because I'm living,

I'm alive because I've found the reason to exist,

Now nothing nor nobody can take away this desire to live.

I dunno what's up with me putting that photo here.

That plate of spaghetti was my breakfast.

:)

❤

The moment she saw him,

walking down the hallway,

her heart skipped a beat,

perhaps more than a beat,

it felt as if her heart had threatened to stop.

A faint smile touched her lips,

her eyes reflected his lean muscular body,

that strode ever to confidently towards her.

Was it his ego that drew her to him?

Was it his dazzling smile that made her hyperventilate?

Or was it those dark eyes that sparkled mysteriously that hynotised her,

leaving her without a will?

She wasn't sure.

All she knew that was,

she had fallen deep deep down,

in love.






❤





Sorry for this lousy one,
its rather hard to write something about love when a person is not in love.
You get what I mean?




Anyway I'll try my best to update this blog as often as possible.

When nothing goes right,
go left.








How true :)

我笑并不代表我快乐，



我哭并不代表我伤心，



我只是在用表情骗人而已。




This post is just to show i can finally type in Chinese.
Haha.

If this was a dream,

I might have cried;

But this isn't one,

so I'll have to smile.

Cause this is reality.



Harsh cruel reality.

I have to be strong.

I have to go on.

I'm invisible

You can't see me,

smell me,

feel me,

look at me,

You turn your head,

you see the air shimmer,

A sign I'm there.



I'm invisible,

you turn and stare into my eyes,

You think nothing is there,

but I'm always there.





Cause I'm invisible.





XD

I can't breathe.




Cause there's no air.

As you can see we are the best friends

There is nothing in between of us

We share secrets no one else knows


(Chorus)
Friendship forever

What does it really mean

To be together all the time

And don't understand?


(Chorus)
Friendship forever

How strong our bond will last?

It's just a mystery for us

I hope we're still friends.



We laugh, we play, we gossip and joke.

We cry, we weep, we share our stories.

And that's what friends are for.



(Chorus) x infinity




I've got the lyrics and the melody and half the chords for it.
But I'm damn lazy to write it down.
Ugh.


Here's something I found from the internet.

Friend -- Most of the people that Facebook calls "friends" I call Acquaintances.
Actual Friend -- Someone whom I've had a meal with, or has visited my home.
Real Friend -- Someone who would drive me to the airport at 6 am.
True Friend -- Someone who would get me out of jail.

❤

In a quiet room.

Suddenly I hear a sharp piercing sound.

Then I hear glass shattering.

I hear the pieces smashing onto the hard cold floor.

I turn around and check.

Everything is in place.

Nothing is shattered.



Perhaps it was just my imagination.



Suddenly I feel a sharp pain coursing through my veins.

The unimaginable feeling.

as if my heart is being ripped apart.

as if a bullet has made its way straight through my heart.

I check.

There's no wound nor is there crimson blood.






This time I know,

it's not my imagination.




What I just experienced

was my heart being broken.

Suddenly inspired by something.

Laughter.

Shouts.

Jeering.

Teasing.

Crying.

I hear them all.



Sorrow.

Pity.

Disgust.

Glee.

Greed.

I feel them all.



I'm caged in.

I'm tied up.

I'm beaten.

I'm gagged.




Unable to move.

Unable to talk.

Unable to see.

Cause I'm a freak show.

Traveling with a circus.

That's what I do.









Cause I'm just a freak show.





P/s: Yup that's me in the photo.
That's chocolate you see on my lips not poison ^^

I just want you to smile for me.


Yes?



:)

XD
The author is going crazy.

Somebody tell me what this is all about?

Don't mind me I'm just being silly after watching Letters to Juliet.
❤ it so much!!!

Can you hear my heart breaking?

She asked with a bitter smile.

Can you feel my pain?

She asked again.

Can you see my tears swelling in my eyes?

She choked.







No he couldn't.


Cause he only had eyes for only one,




and it wasn't her.









Hehe :)

Form 6. Pre-U.

I’ve often doubted my decision. To tell the truth, like many other students before me, I really doubted my decision to study Form 6. After SPM, most of my friends were packing their bags and heading off to college but only a handful of them choose to take the road not taken. (It’s just an expression, ok?) And I was one of them.

Frankly, I had no idea what to choose. I didn’t have a mind set on what to study. I’m weak in Math, Physics and Chemistry and that just minuses my chances in taking the Science stream. But I love English and Arts, which unfortunately I’ve been told so many times that I won’t earn much if I venture in them. And to make this worse, money is the biggest obstacle. If you lack money, college is definitely a no no. So, I had no choice, the road ahead was foggy, bumpy and with as many obstacles as you can possibly imagine. So I decided, or rather my mum decided being a Pre-U student was the best choice there was. Not that I had many choices.

When I first entered Form 6, I was even more unsure of what stream to choose. Accounts, arts or Science? I seriously took this into consideration since this one tiny decision will affect me and my future. I spent one whole week debating with myself on this, weighing the pros and cons. I have entirely no basics in Accounting which to me seems like a really scary subject. Arts? That’s fine but I really can’t bear to be separated from my friends. Science? Here’s a secret, I cried when thinking about this, yes, don’t laugh, tears and all. Burdened by the fact that this little decision will affect my future and the other fact that I’ll probably be separated from my best friends. But in the end, I did not have the courage to venture into Science, I chose I safer route, Accounts. With no basics, it was a tough and risky choice.

6 Rendah 2, that’s the class I landed in. A friend once told me frankly that that class seemed to be the ‘bad’ class and perhaps the teachers won’t be good. I was really down at that time, agreeing and believing what she said. I have never been in any class besides the first class (Amanah, Science) and just thinking that cause I had no basics in Accounts I was ‘forced’ to go to the second Accounts class. But gradually I came to accept the fact.

Let me tell you, sitting in a classroom, full of new faces and trying to make friends is really hard. Believe me. the last time I tried was when I was in Form 1, so I was out of practice. Besides my former classmates, the rest of the class were from another school and we had nothing in common. It took quite some time to get used to each other and to remember names. But still, I made it, we made it.

My classmates are all nice people, some weird, but we got along quite well. And the teachers were great. In Form 6, the lines between a teacher and a student starts to blur, that’s when a student gets enough courage to ask and seek for guidance and even joke around with a teacher. We joke around during lessons, sometimes things might get a little overboard but still in the end this bond is as strong as ever.

Form 6, Lower or Upper is considered the last time where you’ll have to wear a lousy white & blue uniform, wear a tie, clip your hair properly, not allowed to grow bangs, banned from bringing a hand phone and all those other silly rules. But still, I kept up with everything, thinking that this will be the very last time I’ll be able to enjoy life of being a simple, carefree student. How many times have I said to myself that I really hate school, homework, exams and needing to wake up at 6 in the morning? But deep down, I know this hate is only temporary. I know I’ll one day look back, sigh and say how I miss those golden days.

I truly have learnt a lot during Form 6. I’ve learned that education can come in many ways and doesn’t just revolve around books and exams. I’ve learned many things on and off out textbooks, things that I’ve never known before when I was younger. I’ve learned to not exactly follw rules but to bend them to my will and to grasp that golden opportunity that won’t always present itself to you. I’ve learned that friends play an even bigger role than teachers. Besides copying homework from them (Opps), friends are the ones we turn to and will listen and accompany us all the way. My friends have been with me from the beginning to the end, minus a few squabbles. They’ve taught me so much and I feel indebted to them and how I feel towards them, words cannot express.

Form 6 isn’t just about STPM. It’s really about everything. We get the chance to apply things we have learned from our textbooks. We learn to lead the lower form students in co-curricular activities, organize meetings, R&D (which I think isn’t of much use), do proper planning, writing reports after every activity and also generating proper and mature ideas. We learn to be creative by decorating our classrooms and tables. Seriously, did you know that my class was decorated using just newspaper, cardboard and old sugar paper? And we wrap up our tables with newspaper too!

Form 6 or Pre-U is a time when we get to express ourselves and find our true potential, to clear up the fog ahead a bit and to set a goal. Form 6 is tough but people like us Form 6-sers are even tougher! I have come to accept that my memories here will last forever and that this has shaped and nurtured me even more!

Thank you PRA-U KA2, Pn Chandrika(the best class teacher, ever), G.A.s, and mum (for helping me make that decision)!!!

❤ A side project of mine ❤

I've only realized that

just seeing you smile is enough to make my heart race.

And hearing you laugh is enough to make me smile.

And listening to your jokes is enough to make my day.









Hey tell me,

is this really what I think it is?











Hey tell me,

am I really falling for you?

Am I?

Death.

Is a part of life.
Is part of the circle.
Is the continuation of life.

Death is a horrifying prospect to a living being.

Not being able to breathe again.
Not being able to smile again.
Not being able to cry again.
Not being able to express oneself again in so many ways.

All those things
which a dead and cold body cannot do.
All those things
which a sick man yearn to do.
All those simple things
which a living person neglect to do.




So many deaths everyday.
Due to hunger,
due to old age,
due to sickness.
due to accidents.

So many deaths everyday.
So many souls leaving their family and friends
going back to God's embrace.

So many deaths everyday.
All I'm doing at least is praying that
non of those deaths happen to those that I love.

Human beings are greedy.
And so am I.
I just can't bear the pain of losing somebody dear to me.
Just the thought about it,
chills me to the bone.

Once a healthy, cheerful living person
now an empty void.
All that that's left is only but the memories of once upon a time.

So many deaths all of a sudden.
How many more do we not know about?


We never know what may happen next in life cause fate is cruel.

❤

1.
When I'm closing my eyes,
I lose myself;
falling into the dark abyss.
I'm having a nightmare
but I know you're by my side.



2.
You taught us how to read.
You taught us how to write.
You taught us how to listen.
You taught us how to speak.
Thank you for teaching us the things you know.



3.
You guide us up,
step by step,
to excellency.



4.
The mountain I climb,
Is as high as sun can shine,
You just put me on the top pf the world.



5.
When the night gets cold;
and I'm shivering to death all alone,
you appear like my fairy godmother,
and help me through the night.



6.
When time gets rough and life gets tough;
when the obstacles in life make us miserable;
and when we can't adjust our own sails properly,
you'll guide us patiently through the Seven Seas.



7.
As long as I'm with you,
I'm content.
Cause all I'm after is your laughter.



8.
When I'm all alone in the darkness,
crying my guts out;
you're the spider in the corner keeping me company.




Those above were all made up by yours truly^^
Except for the 3rd and 4th one which I got from Jeremiah's lyrics.
They're for a tiny little book my friend and I are making.



❤